Okaaaaaaaay....

[wataya]

I just lived the most scaring moment.

As long-time readers of my LJ may knew, my father is a late diagnosised (and hardcore) bipolar. He's now under drugs, after I had to put him in psychiatric unit more than a little year ago. One of the things we were said, my mother and I, about that disease, is that people often have a change of personnality (I've seen it with my brother, who's not yet diagnosised) : there was signs for my father, but nothing that could make me jump in awe. Till today.

My father had always been crazy about cars. He's engineer, but he'd have work for car industry. Before manic-depression, 50% of his time was dedicated to our garagist (I can't find the good word). Today, he's awaiting a new car (toyota's prius, the car of modern times : I quote my ironical mum) : and suddenly, he tells me he doesn't car about cars, and never had, really. It'd be like I wake up one morning and say I just don't care about books, and never loved them, really !! It's not nonesense, it's crazy !

I was thinking he was better, but actually, he's just fooling us, willingly or not...

Comments

[sarahbellem.livejournal.com]

That is scary. My soon-to-be-ex husband is also bipolar... We knew about it all along, but it still came as a big surprise to everyone when he said that he never really wanted to be married to me and that he never really loved me. Apparently, he was very good at fooling us all. I don't know if it was the truth or just the disease, but either way it doesn't matter now.

It is a devastating illness. :(

[wataya]

Yeah, we know that too : at the high of his crisis, my father said to my mother that he didn't loved her, and had marry her out of pity, that he was still in love with the woman he was dating before he met my mum (35 years ago !!). He also said right in my face that he never wanted children, that my mother forced him to. When you know my father, it's unbelievable, but that desease do that to people : they really belive in their fancies.

Frankly, a divorce is something painfull, but I really think that you will have a better life without having to dealt with a bipolar. This disease is probably the most awfull think you can have to dealt with because it turns loving people we care for into monsters.

Thanks a lot.

[dont-callmebabe.livejournal.com]

I don't know what to say to make you feel better..
But i hope things will be better for both you and your family soon.

Babe.

[wataya]

Your comment is already a warming thing. don't search word for thazt, there isn't any...

Thanks
*Hugs*

[spookyronny.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for you. i don't know a lot about this disease but of what i know, it must be hard for you and your family.

I think i can understand your feeling, i mean being really scared by the behaviour of one of your parents. It happens to me with my mother.

*big hugs*

[wataya]

The less you know about that disease, the better you will be, believe me...

Thanks for your confort.

*hugs in return*

[petite-dilly.livejournal.com]

J’imagine ce que ça peut faire… Moi aussi mon père est passé par l’hôpital psychiatrique et parfois j’ai peur qu’il replonge…
Brr, c’est vraiment dur ces choses-là >_<
Que dire sinon te souhaiter du courage ?? :-*

[wataya]

Merci !

C'est juste que rien que l'idée qu'il pourrait être en train de replonger et que ma mère avec qui il devient extrêmement violent quand il est en crise, va rester seule avec lui, ça me terrifie.
Mais ça me terrifie encore plus de rester et d'assister à ça : car s'il y a une chose de sûr avec les bipolaires, c'est qu'il détruisent forcément les gens qui les entourent. Et j'ai déjà suffisament donné...