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Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
regrets ? Jeez, a lot !
1. I wish I had not been a victim in school. I thought I survived, but seeing how fucked up I am right now, I must admit I probably half-died then. I should have fought back.
2. I wish I had not been that nice to my (now) former best friend : I forgive her anything (and you have no idea how much despise she shows about me that I ignored), just because she was my oldest friend, the only one who knew all my secrets. The result being that when she fell pregnant at the end of last year, I never heard about it. I learned it when she send me the birth annoucment. I counted on my fingers : last time I saw her, she should have been in her 3d month. Ouch ! Never again.
3. I wish I had made Japanese studies instead of modern french litterture studies : I could be a japanese translator, an interpreter, I could try to search for a job in Japan, etc. Instead, I wanted to work in the publishing industry, to be told in the end that they only wanted trade school students (to publish literature, yes : don't ask why french literature is so pretty darn terrible ! It's just that no-one knows about literature anymore in the french publishing industry). Wth my studies, I have only oe other career choice : french teacher, full time. No way. I'm doing a part time teaching job, and it's killing me. Litteraly.
3. I regret having accept to baby my little cousins for the last 5 years. Last summer was the first time I said no, because I wanted to see my grand-mother which had been impossible the other times. My mother did the next week after I see her. I lost the last five years of my grand-ma's life. I'm crying while writing this because it's like my heart is tearing in pieces just thinking of it. I loved my grand-ma with no words to express it, and I missed all the more precious moments. For kids that I hate ith passion by the way !
4. I regret not having cousins when I was a kid, I regret having cousins now. My three little cousins (5, 3 1/2, and 1) are the most hateful little beasts ever not educated. And when I treat them of animals, I weighting my words : last week, the oldest had a grudge against her mother for some stupid reason. She took her revenge by poohing in the shower while no one was watching her ! Can you believe that ? The second, the boy is just plain odious : at three, he already called is mother a bitch three times (and this during the 2 weeks in summer when I could witness that). I have prejudices against the last one because of the two firsts, but I'm sure she will turn just as bad.
5. I wish I had dated that guy when I was 18. He was great, and we were both just too shy, and none made the first move. He was just the perfect geek for me, and it would probably have been my best love story. And it never happened. And I will still hold that regret for years.
6. I wish I didn't have so many regrets.
